Go!

This is not about answering the call to be a missionary to Africa, so you can relax.

It's about waiting around for the right words, the right plan, the best program, the newest acronym, the full understanding of the situation. Or it's about NOT waiting around for those things.

Now you've read my number one hindrance  to prayer described above: waiting for the right or best or newest way to "do prayer."

Instead, God's message to me these days is, "Go! Start talking to Me. Spit it out. Tell me everything in your heart. Tell me all the confusion, all the paths you see, all the scary stuff, all the frustrations. Tell it in your words, with your heart, with your whole self engaged. Just. Talk. To. Me."

So, I'm walking away from the acronyms, the tried-and-true formulas, the specified patterns for prayer, and even from the prayers in the book that really are nice to read aloud. And will GO running into the safe place where my Father is and tell Him everything. All of it. Without organizing anything. Refusing to try to make my words fit anything. Understanding that it's me He loves, not my clever words. I'm stopping the hesitancy to say anything before I'm sure I understand His will so I can ask "according to His will."

I'm stopping all these so I can run like the wind as I GO straight toward the One who knows all my tangles anyway, and who will listen and help me untangle, and who will answer the real needs of my life, whether I manage to be articulate or not.  Come to think of it, I'm dropping that articulate thing too. I'll just GO to my Father and rest there, trusting Him with all of it.